I don't know ya'll..

About my maturity. Tonight as always me and my cousin were talking about boys and getting some (may i mention that we are the biggest Virgins I know). Oh and we were talkin about getting a group tattoo...We decided on snowflakes because i felt that us tattooing 3 amigos was a little tacky. (Oh God, I think I have a concussion my head is spinning) So My sweet little cousin tells us that she just wants to make out and you know what what girl can't relate to that. She tells us that she has this friend that she knows would be down for a hook up. Let me describe this boy for yall he's white and wants to be a rapper...literally when he texts he writes "wud da wnt naw" Dude my cousin can barely understand what he's saying but i guess its our equivilant of going for a black boy when you're a white girl, if the black boy acted "white". So after i give her the disclaimer of "i dont think this is a good idea but im going to encourage you to do it" she texts him and proceeds with the no holds bar texts messaging that happens when you can hide behind your phone. (Everyone has talked a good game on a cell phone and on aim I definitely can raise my hand to potentially almost getting caught up in a bad situation because of a riske text message chat). Anyways the guy agrees to meet up with her to exchange a "kiss" (MAKEOUT MAKEOUT). Now my cousin is bad ass she is prepared to meet up with this guy and face the music! IF we come with her, hide in the backseat, and let her drive my grandmothers car. So we agree because .....were crazy bitches when we're together. While all of this is happening i get inspired to text my little austin dip, this down white boy who i think is snaggle tooth. Dont judge! he does it for me when i'm looking for some attention. So i drive my grandmothers car until we come to the guys street, at this point i get out the car let my little cousin jump in the drivers seat while me and my other cousin lay down in the back of the car. So she pulls up and we hold are positions hiding in the car until were positive that my cousin and the guy can't see us anymore. When we see the coast is clear we look up and you know try to get a peek. Dont judge... We can't see crap! 2 minutes pass...we see nothing but its time for us to call her and give the "hey it momma" so she can tell us how much longer we need to wait. She answers and then after i deliever the "hey its mom" she goes "whatever" and hang up ME. Ok ill give her 10 minutes. May i mention that were in the car without any air conditioner in TEXAS and were ducking anytime a car passes....10 minutes pass. We call she answers and hangs up....Ok maybe she is having a good makeout sesh...10 more minutes pass. I'm sweatin in the car and dammit its 1245 at night but hey we've all taken one for the team. So i call her and this time I'm a little peeved. We have no idea whats going on and 25minutes have passed. So we call her twice and she doesn't answer so i decided to sneak out the car with my other cousin in tow. We jump out and the lights pop on in the car (we knew this would happen because 20 minutes before my dumb ass thought i could just open the door to get some air and the lights came on....thus scarring us shitless) So were hiding behind the car and we hear the car door open that my cousin was in and dammit would you know we were looking into the wrong car the entire time to get a peak. So my cousin and her boy head towards the car and i freak out and jump up from behind the car and slam my head into the side of the car as i try to hide from the guy so he wont see me because you dont want to embarras her. So i run low behind the car and slip around the front...oh it was raining. While this is happening i hear my cousin talking and saying its just my sister and cousin. So thank God i can get up and be normal and stop hiding and crap but wtf how long did he know we were in there. I could have been chillin with the air conditioner on. May i add that my cousin that was hiding with me in the car rolled around in the grass trying to hide also. We are 21 and 22. Wtf i am too old to playing this game. So im pissed because of all the girl rules my little cousin broke but shes 18 we've all did are damage. Heck i am too old.

just a thought,
ddh

p.s i think i need to stay awake for an hour because i might have a concussion

pps tattoos??? ill keep u updated

This is the little cousin talking.
-These girls know good and well that the one who just wrote this would have done the exact same to me. ddh-(NOT TRUE) In fact I happen to remember my sister [the 22 year old] breaking some very key girl rules when it came to a guy. ddh-(TRUE) can you guess what I did?.... well? I took it like a fucking champ and just tried to understand. We girls can get desperate in our times in need. ddh-(TRUE) But yes I am a virgin and I intend to stay that way until I say 'I do'. I know college is a completly different lifestyle from high school but honestly if I can go this long without doing so much as make out with a guy [granted I have but it was a shamefull experience that I DO NOT count] I'm sure I will be just fine in college. Just as long as I stop making stupid decisions....but seriously I'm scurred as a mutha fucka to do anything.....too many diseases, I could eat a bowl full of birth control and still not feel safe, and I want my future husband to know I waited for him and only him. OK this was longer than I expected... hope it makes some sort of sense.. peace and love. ddh- (May I mention she's about to start college so thats why she has such an enlightened ending to her story)

live and let live.... the lil cuz
ddh-(I love u)